Perspective

Three weeks ago I was lamenting how stressed out I was and how I wished I could fast forward time.  Andy was preparing for boards, Dominic's teachers went on strike, and I felt overwhelmed trying to keep everyone happy and busy while getting ready for our big move.  Then my dad passed away.  Now I would give anything to turn back time.  I realize how minimal those stresses were in comparison to what I'm facing now.  If I could go back and change anything, it would be to bring Dad back.  Instead of looking ahead and "killing" time, I've been reminded to savor every moment, because tomorrow is no guarantee.  How my perspective has changed.

To be completely honest, the big reason I kept up this blog the last year or so has been for Dad.  He would always call to comment on the pictures I posted, or to gently remind me to update the blog.  With him gone, it almost hurts too much to post here.  I'm sure things will get easier with time, but right now I'm very much at the angry/hurt/upset stage of grief.

If you've missed it, here is Dad's obituary.  Johnny did a beautiful job writing it, and the pictures that accompany it bring me back to happier times.